LESBIAN COSPLAYERS!!!!!
So, I have been thinking about my sexuality, and I'm still pretty sure I'm bi even though I've never really been with a woman (for more than 2,5 days), but in addition I have been thinking about my mental gender.
This I have been pondering for two years on and off, since my ex girlfriend asked me if I was a transgendered since I mentioned I sort of wished I had been born a boy.
It's not exactly that I wish to be a man, but I think I would have liked to have been one. I don't want to change anything though. I am very happy this way, I mean I love being the hot image that I am and would "jack off" to; Woman.
I am also very feminine. I can be so girly I feel like puking just thinking about it. Puking pink glittery stuff. And I love it.
But the more I think about the more I believe that I have a very broad mental gender. I can be not entirely maxed out on the girly scale, but pretty darn girly, and I also admire mens behaviour greatly and aspire to become more like them, and sometimes I see it in myself. And it is all me. No pretense, it comes easy.
But I swear this is the last thing. When I fantasize I usually don't think like I imagine other women think, I believe my sexual fantasies are more of a man's.
It might just be that I'm influenced by porn and that since porn is made by men for men (except yaoi) I've been "taught" to think like that and enjoy it.
Wow, sexual filosophy/psychology/human behaviour (or whatever) shit is really fun!
What do you guys think?