Your first time will probably be not so hot.
But the goal would be to be with a girl you're really comfortable with, and then get lots of practice. >.>
Yeah...it's not easy for me to get comfortable with people.
I'm not so concerned with sucking. Just not getting the chance to suck. (yes, yes, you can laugh at that)
There's only one person I'd be comfortable doing anything with at the moment, and she's all up with the emotional hang-ups about relationships.
I suppose ultimately, the problem is for me the whole interpersonal relationships thing is too inter-connected.
Like, I'm the type of person that can't separate sex from love. I can't even feel lust for someone I don't love.
And for me to love someone, I need to be good friends with them or otherwise have some reason to achknowledge them as a worthwhile human being.
So yeah, prerequisites are a bitch. I've tried being more open-minded than that, but, it just won't fly with the way I operate.